Day 19

So much has happened and is happening. In July my sister and I worked together *gasp* to give my parent's a party to celebrate their 60th Wedding Anniversary. It was a very nice party attended by about 35 people. Family and friends all gathered to visit and eat and visit some more - there was even a little bit of shag dancing in the kitchen!

Caleb's birthday is this month. His Grandma and Papa are giving him a party on the Sunday before the big day and we are giving him a party on the Sunday AFTER the big day. I am hoping to give Caleb a swingset (in connection with Heidi and Poppie) - and with their stealth and cunning I am sure they'll help me swing it (no pun - well, yeah, pun intended).

Also I've managed the health pretty well this year but have gone downhill for the last 5 or 6 weeks. I've been running a fever and been on 4 different antibiotics - hopefully this last one will do the trick. I have a feeling that if it doesn't i'll be ruining my record of not being an inpatient in hospital since November of last year.

And saving the best for last!!! After nearly 10 years of being single, maybe having 5 dates (that's generous) and being SURE I would grow old alone, I've met someone. Her name is Felecia. She is my love. We moved pretty quickly and skipped all the awkward stuff to move straight into being comfortable. We don't talk in terms of next week or next month, but in terms of forever. While we may never live together as she loves living alone and I am looking forward to it - we will always be together -- this I know as sure as I know my own name. I am incredibly blessed by this woman - and we are convinced that divine intervention led us to each other.

Day 18

Whew...what a week. An online friend's father committed suicide - and she was the one to find him. What a fucking selfish act! All of us (her friends from the online community) have rallied around her and done what we can from far away. A great shoutout goes to the crime scene cleanup people who, after receiving tons of calls from people like me, took away the mattress FOR FREE.

On other notes, it's been a good week. K.C. and others came yesterday to pick up some more of his stuff -- not the car yet but he says it'll be done in a few weeks.

There has been lots of alone time and that's a good thing. The baby's father's girlfriend (how odd) is a wonderful woman who is excellent with Caleb. She has a boy of her own about his age and a little neice that stays with her alot. They play fairly well together and Caleb loves her. What a blessing.

Enough said

Day 17

It's been a great last few days. I had Caleb yesterday and we had a GREAT day. We read books, played cars and played outside. This kid is most certainly an outside kid!

Life is good -

Day 16

I've had Caleb for the last few days and today is my day off. It's been very quiet, only puncuated by a mild headache and a little quesyness. One of these days soon I will get motivated to really deep clean the house -- Soon I hope!

Day 15

It's Mother's Day! I had a very good day and am feeling very well. We had dinner at Mom and Dad's with Deb and Jim. It was a small group, but the food was excellent. For the record, strawberries and apple are very good in a salad - Especially with vinegarette dressing. The house is somewhat clean and tomorrow promises to be a good day. I want to clean off the back porch and clean my bathroom and work on the laundry. Kristen is off so it will be a fun day working together.

Oh! K.C. called me today and wished me a Happy Mother's Day -- that just helped make my day -- and i got a rose bush! I want to line my walkway leading to the front porch in roses. Kristen and I looked for a Peace Rose but no one in the area carries them. I did find them online and am so pleased. When I get paid I plan to buy one.

Day 14 1/2

Now that K.C. has moved and Kristen spends a fair amount of time away from home, and Caleb is often with his dad or his "da-ma," I need to get more motivated. I've been home alone all day and the only productive things I did were put in a load of laundry, empty trash, clip the dog (didn't end well, bruzer is sad) and and and...that's about it. Granted I'm coming off a wall-hit (for those of you who don't know i can go and go and go and then i hit a wall - which happened on Thursday) and still feel headachey and queasy and so so so fatigued - but i really don't see that as an excuse. I'll be alone tomorrow most of the day till I go to mom and dad's and I'll see can i get some more stuff done.

Day 14

So much for plans....came home day before yesterday and HIT MY WALL I've been basically sleeping/resting for the last 36 hours and finally feel like myself again! Kristen's foot is better, still haven't gotten more than a few word email out of the boy but am hoping for better.

Day 13

Finally! The car is on the road legally -- insurance bought, emissions tested, fixed (rank down on the gas cap, use computer to reset the light) emissions retested - passed!, tag purchased and thank the Lord they gave me a 2010 sticker! No retaxes on my birthday next month -- yayayayay I love the ladies at the tax office - they rock.

Kristen hurt herself today at work - a bruised achilles tendon --as caleb would say "OWIE OWIE WONDER PETS!" She's better tonight and will be at work tomorrow.

Now that all the car stuff is done, tomorrow i have to take the insurance company a copy of my license, then pick up some stuff at wallyworld for mom then i'm freakin done! I can come home, clean my room start the mountain of laundry that's built up and live my life! But -- thanks to my folks i can go somewhere if i want to -- neener!

Day 12

I am so thankful for the car and spent the day doing the necessary paperwork/purchases to make it legal. Left the house at 9:30 am got back at 7:00 pm --- long ass day I have caleb tomorrow so it's an early bedtime for me.

Day 11

Awhile back I told my best friend that my favorite part of the day was when, at night, I laid down to sleep. She said that was a little bit sad, and I agreed. Now, I dread laying down, no matter how tired I am. That once-infaliable comfortable sleep position now eludes me. No sooner than I get my head and neck fixed and my hair out of my face then my hips hurt, then the knees and I don't want to even get into the feet. I hate night time now. I feel I go to war with my bed and much needed rest. I've tried everything, and take ambien - you'd think that would work. Pardon the bitching I'm just tired after too many nights with 3-4 hours sleep.

Day 10 1/2

Well - what a day. Slept sinfully late then got a call from Mom asking me to come over. K.C. drove me over and I thought someone was visiting. I asked Mom and Dad, "Who is here?" They repilied "No one." My Dad and I walked out of the house and were looking at a lovely, 2004, Dodge Stratus. "It's yours." I almost fainted, in fact i'm sure if i hadn't been sitting in the driver's seat I would have hit the ground. It's a lovely car, but that is a totally gravy. It's a CAR that will RUN and be RELIABLE. Reliability is big for me.

K.C. moves tomorrow.

Day 10

After a whole year with a broken car, today I AM CAR!

Day 9

Well, here it is. Mike called K.C. this morning and needs him in Valdosta by Monday. Sooooo he's moving THIS Sunday, not next. Bit of a shock. Tiff and I got him packed up so he's ready to go after some serious partying this weekend. Kristen was so tired when she got home, after working 2 hours overtime -- we walked past his near empty room and she said "I don't wanna see that right now." It's going to be so hard for her...bless her heart.

Day 8

Today was great -- got up at 8 then did some yucky clean the house stuff then got to play in the dirt again! I planted some flowers in pots for the front porch. NOW the house looks like mine. I'm going to try to put some of my favorite sites up for anyone who wants to peruse them.

PostSecret

Igotanenvelope

Scholastic.comHarry Potter: Wizard Challenge

I Saw Your Nanny-Report Bad Nannies

Twitter

FOUND Magazine

This is my little Caleb jumping on the bed!

Day 7

Again with the Snort Sneeze Cough and talking like I've swollowed a frog. Oh well....anyway - planted pretty flowers this week. I love my house but it's BROWN all over - so ever since I've moved here I wanted to add some color -- FINALLY!!! Tiff and Heidi coming to get me and we're going to a bar for lunch! Oddly enough Backwoods Bar and Grill in Stockbridge has great food. There are a couple of people that cook and I swear it tastes like I made it at home!

Going to plant some salvia around the mailbox today and hopefully tiff will fix my rocker.

peace out homies (caleb's current favorite saying)

Day 6

I was sitting quietly at my computer snorting and sneezing (i have a awful cold) when the kids are FREAKING OUT in the living room. "MOM MOM COME SEE COME SEE!!!!" Convinced that we were being invaded I walked in and lo and behold there's a BABY BAT on our blinds. I walked back to my room, got a pillowcase, waiting for him to be still, tossed it over him, lifted him gently (while he chittered his head off) and let him go outside. You would have thought - well, i don't even know what you would have thought -- it was just mayhem and madness - and who gets the bat? The decrepit old nana (me). Hee hee -- see me the mighty bat capturerer and letter goer.

Day 5

What a lovely busy day. Kristen and I shampooed carpet (so much fun) then Kristen put the living room back together -- then my besties brought me flowers and plants so K.C. and I planted them. By the way, there is no better feeling that a lovely warm bath after being so yucky sweaty.

Day 4 1/2

KC got home fine but exhausted after his long drive in a not-so-wonderful (albiet free) vechicle. I talked to him because he looked sad, but i think he just has a jumble in his head that's driving him nuts. Made sure he knew we love him and want the best for him and support his every move. Sometimes that last one is the hardest thing a Mom can do. Basically i've realized that having adult children is great - however - you no longer mediate their life, providing instruction allong the way. When your child is older, you just don't get a vote. You can give an opinion, but :alas: no vote. That part sux. Lori

Day 4

Actually feeling pretty good for driving all day yesterday. I got home around 11:30 pm, sat on the computer and then slept like the dead. Oddly enough i woke up around 10 this morning totally rested.

CIT is pretty quiet today. Caleb is with Da-Ma and KC hasn't come home from Valdosta yet and Kristen is asleep on the couch. I should be cleaning but am such a procrastinator today.

The tension in the house has eased. Spending yesterday in the car with KC allowed us to get some things out in the open. It's so hard to think about him leaving, but it's time. He's going to move in a couple of weeks then Kristen says she's shooting for getting her own place by this time next year. I can't believe I'll be alone! It's been so long since I've lived alone that I'm looking forward to it. The children MUST visit, but to be able to keep the house clean, cook for myself only, geez, does this make me a bad parent?

Day 3

Drive, get out walk, drive get out walk repeat many many times go home stay 2 minutes get in car drive get out drive get out drive get out drive drive drive drive get out stay 10 minutes drive drive drive drive get out go in house and thank the Lord you're home. Welcome to my day.

K.C. and I spent half the day looking for him a car, no love -- then got home to phones BLOWING UP evidently everyone had been looking for us as his dad had a car for him. Drive to Valdosta to get car drive home. Ahhh and I am SO happy to be here.

He is moving back to South GA. I will miss him so much but am happy for this new phase of his life. He is 21 - it's time.

Day 2 (kindof)

Night used to be my friend. I would lay my head down on a soft pillow, close my eyes and go to sleep. Now, night and I fight on a regular basis. I miss the days of peacetime between us. The war is fought with itches, body twitches, aches and pains, stuffy noses and racing brain. On a regular basis I get one thing calmed down and another pops up. Everything gets just right and then i get hot, throw the covers off. Now I'm cold, put them back on. Left side cold, right side hot --- you get the idea. So tonight I'm pulling out all the stops - get ready, Night - here is my weapon of mass destruction. Blogging. I will blog, i will read others blogs, i will twitter and read the missives of other twitterati. Perhaps this will accomplish what ambien, darvocet and neurontin did not. sleep well. me

Day 1 1/2 - things that make me smile :)

First Day

There is so much going on at 110 CIT. But what is going on is happening underwater in the current of our daily lives. No one except the baby are being themselves and this is causing tension. It isn't that palpalable -I can touch it- tension - it's that tendon on a bowstring kindof tension that you could pluck and make everything in the near vicinity vibrate.

I believe, as a result of this twangy tension I am coming down with something. Each of my organs feel that they weigh an extra pound or two, and my legs feel like I should drag them behind me. So I will drink liquids, get some rest, play with the baby and try to stay under the tension radar. Wish me luck. Me