ohhh memory lossI

To be honest, I'd forgotten that I had made a blog. I've forgotten where I have left off so this is what is going on now. The children moved away and within months, they had come back. I don't mind. Much has been going on with my dad and me and my daughter, so it has been a comfort to have them here. My daughter, Kristen, is expecting my second grandson in November. I am praying that it is born on november 11th as that was my precious sister's birthday. LOL she would laugh at that, but she was a gift..that lasted 42 years. And it ended January 19, 1996. ANYWAY....it is a busy life, but calming down as we speak.

Day 19

So much has happened and is happening. In July my sister and I worked together *gasp* to give my parent's a party to celebrate their 60th Wedding Anniversary. It was a very nice party attended by about 35 people. Family and friends all gathered to visit and eat and visit some more - there was even a little bit of shag dancing in the kitchen!

Caleb's birthday is this month. His Grandma and Papa are giving him a party on the Sunday before the big day and we are giving him a party on the Sunday AFTER the big day. I am hoping to give Caleb a swingset (in connection with Heidi and Poppie) - and with their stealth and cunning I am sure they'll help me swing it (no pun - well, yeah, pun intended).

Also I've managed the health pretty well this year but have gone downhill for the last 5 or 6 weeks. I've been running a fever and been on 4 different antibiotics - hopefully this last one will do the trick. I have a feeling that if it doesn't i'll be ruining my record of not being an inpatient in hospital since November of last year.

And saving the best for last!!! After nearly 10 years of being single, maybe having 5 dates (that's generous) and being SURE I would grow old alone, I've met someone. Her name is Felecia. She is my love. We moved pretty quickly and skipped all the awkward stuff to move straight into being comfortable. We don't talk in terms of next week or next month, but in terms of forever. While we may never live together as she loves living alone and I am looking forward to it - we will always be together -- this I know as sure as I know my own name. I am incredibly blessed by this woman - and we are convinced that divine intervention led us to each other.

Day 18

Whew...what a week. An online friend's father committed suicide - and she was the one to find him. What a fucking selfish act! All of us (her friends from the online community) have rallied around her and done what we can from far away. A great shoutout goes to the crime scene cleanup people who, after receiving tons of calls from people like me, took away the mattress FOR FREE.

On other notes, it's been a good week. K.C. and others came yesterday to pick up some more of his stuff -- not the car yet but he says it'll be done in a few weeks.

There has been lots of alone time and that's a good thing. The baby's father's girlfriend (how odd) is a wonderful woman who is excellent with Caleb. She has a boy of her own about his age and a little neice that stays with her alot. They play fairly well together and Caleb loves her. What a blessing.

Enough said

Day 17

It's been a great last few days. I had Caleb yesterday and we had a GREAT day. We read books, played cars and played outside. This kid is most certainly an outside kid!

Life is good -

Day 16

I've had Caleb for the last few days and today is my day off. It's been very quiet, only puncuated by a mild headache and a little quesyness. One of these days soon I will get motivated to really deep clean the house -- Soon I hope!

Day 15

It's Mother's Day! I had a very good day and am feeling very well. We had dinner at Mom and Dad's with Deb and Jim. It was a small group, but the food was excellent. For the record, strawberries and apple are very good in a salad - Especially with vinegarette dressing. The house is somewhat clean and tomorrow promises to be a good day. I want to clean off the back porch and clean my bathroom and work on the laundry. Kristen is off so it will be a fun day working together.

Oh! K.C. called me today and wished me a Happy Mother's Day -- that just helped make my day -- and i got a rose bush! I want to line my walkway leading to the front porch in roses. Kristen and I looked for a Peace Rose but no one in the area carries them. I did find them online and am so pleased. When I get paid I plan to buy one.

Day 14 1/2

Now that K.C. has moved and Kristen spends a fair amount of time away from home, and Caleb is often with his dad or his "da-ma," I need to get more motivated. I've been home alone all day and the only productive things I did were put in a load of laundry, empty trash, clip the dog (didn't end well, bruzer is sad) and and and...that's about it. Granted I'm coming off a wall-hit (for those of you who don't know i can go and go and go and then i hit a wall - which happened on Thursday) and still feel headachey and queasy and so so so fatigued - but i really don't see that as an excuse. I'll be alone tomorrow most of the day till I go to mom and dad's and I'll see can i get some more stuff done.